My Turn

How Many Times?

   Welcome to my new blog. I will mainly be blogging on different insights that have helped me through some difficult times. Please feel free to comment on anything you see here.

   Last Monday was a very difficult day for me. it was a day that I knew was coming and I thought that I was pretty well prepared for it. Things did not go exactly like I thought they would and it honestly knocked me for a loop. I spent a good part of the rest of the day fighting conflicting emotions. I was relieved that I finally had at least some sense of closure. I was mad at myself for being in that situation to start with. I was mad at the system that I felt had crucified me on this day. Then my feelings started to turn to despair. I had things going in the right direction and had started making some long range plans. I was getting ready to apply to go back to school. How in the world was I going to do that now? How was I going to do a lot of the things that I wanted to do? This was the story of my life, replaying itself again. Woe is me. But then…

   I made myself stop thinking those negative thoughts. I told myself that I was going to figure out a way to make this a positive in my life.  As I thought about all this stuff a question came into my mind. I kept hearing, “How many times?” Huh? Then it dawned on me! How many times does God have to prove Himself faithful and true before we trust Him no matter what? How many times before our first thought is “I can’t wait to see what God is going to do with this one.” instead of something negative?

   The Israelites were a perfect example of what I’m talking about. God had shown them 10 different wonders (plagues). Each time He told Moses that He was going to harden Pharoah’s heart against them and that he would not let them go. God would then bring another plague on the Egyptians so that the Israelites wold know and that they could tell their son’s sons that He was the Lord God.

   Ten different times God showed Himself before they left Egypt. Now they’ve left Egypt on the run and are trapped between Pharoah’s army and the sea. What did they say? They wondered wouldn’t they have been better off to stay in Egypt and live in slavery than to die in the wilderness? After all that God had shown them, this was their reply!

   God has shown me so many times what He is capable of.  I choose not to live in fear, but in anticipation of seeing how God is going to handle the next situation.

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